Time is not our own;

So, I'm guessing it's about time for some new years resolutions! Okay…here I go:

Uuuuuuuuhh, eh..
My oh my, this is much harder than i thought.
I'm not saying there aren't things about me that need improvement, but those flaws are kinda what make me who I am, I don't think they are so bad that I need to change them. Nevertheless, I can always do things that make my life all that better. So i guess, here are a few points that I can focus on this year.

∆ Painting my nails more often would be a good one. And to avoid conflict with my dad, i'll make sure i don't go outside the 'lines', he hates when it looks messy.

∆ Try not to worry so much, or maybe..no that might be a good thing, because the worrying boosts productivity in some areas..like school and the amount of wrinkles i'll acquire by the age of 30.

∆ Take care of myself more. As in, get more sleep, stop using body lotion on my face..i heard its not very good for you. Taking care of my skin more, less harsh chemicals on it and, well, i guess painting my nails goes under that as well.

Oh! And moisturize my elbow and legs, strange i know, but I'm terrible at that.

∆ Get a job once i move to the states and start saving up for a car, but to do this, i'll have to manage my time between socializing, school and well, now work a lot better than i've been doing recently.

∆ Keep in touch with people more than i do now. You never know who might be the people who could have been there for you if you ever needed them until you realize you're left all alone, laying in your bed in the fetal position trying to comfort yourself by flipping through old photos of past memories.

∆ Make people feel better about themselves, give someone a compliment once in a while, i know i love getting them, well most of the time I do. It's the easiest way to spread happiness and it's so darn simple.

∆ Continue doing the things that bring joy to my life like 

- Dancing 

- Being apart of sports teams like volleyball.

- Surrounding myself with friends.

- Keeping fit (Eating healthy/exercising) 

-Listening to country music, if you don't like it, buy some ear plugs.

- & Of course singing..despite me sounding like a dying cat, it's fun and it makes me happy, so why not?

∆ Last, but certainly not least, take a minute to enjoy the present and to stop looking forward to the future all the time.

A little too late, and a bit too early?

Photo by Astrid S.

Merry (late) Christmas to all those who celebrate! 

AND of course, a very happy new year (in 5.4 hours, that is)!

May the new year bathe you in amazing opportunities, 

happiness, and for some people, a clean slate.

Feliz Navidad!

God Jul! Or in English, Merry Christmas! The Samuelsberg's have been here for 4 days, all leading up to this very night. Presents over flowing from under the tree, and good spirits all around. Laughter, good food and company has created a joyous atmosphere of celebration and happiness.
Albeit there being no snow, the air condition makes up for the cold northern winds, and the ice cold marble floors add that tingle in the toes.

I honestly can't believe it's already Christmas and in a  few days the new year will approach us and there will be a whole new set of 365 days to make a difference. Do something extraordinary and create an impact, big or small, negative or positive. 
Cherish the opportunities that arise before you and use them in your best interest to do good.

Have a great Christmas eve, remember, this is the time of giving, not receiving, so stop eying those parcels under the tree.

Smile

Cheeks brushing, smiles spreading, eyes glimmering, fingers interlinking.

The sun is on our side, but time is not. 55 minutes can easily be mistaken as 5. 

Hate can easily be the mask of love. 

New found knowledge once beautifully untouched, is now embraced by the utmost care, 

not near ready enough to give it up for the world to see. 

Your mine, at least for the moment being.

Exposed to the Naked Light

The curious eyes that wander upon what was once a well kept secret hidden right in the public eye. 

The genuine written words formerly spoken have now caused demoralization. 

What a pity.

Last day

My last day in Cape Town, i've got to admit, i've been pretty shit at posting picture updates, but this was due to the lack of photo's taken during the trip, everything that i took seemed repetitive, so i didn't bother to take any more after a while, but i'll put in a few nice one's that i liked.

I love South Africa. This was my second visit here and it definitely wasn't a let down. The people are wonderful, the country is gorgeous, and there is much to do, you definitely wont get bored of this lively place.

However, as much as i enjoyed my vacation here, i'm quite excited to get back to 'home'. I've missed some certain individuals. I just dread the long 10 hour airplane ride, but you gotta do what you gotta do.

Oh, and i just finished a book that i've been reading nonstop this whole vacation. 'Not Without My Daughter', definitely the best book i've ever read, so touching. Truly compelling, a favorite indeed. I highly recommend it!

November . 18 . 2010

It's hard to support something when everyone else is against it.

It's hard to be agitated when everyone else is calm.

It's hard to live in the present when you long for the future.

It's hard not to be annoyed when someone is whistling.

It's hard to be yourself when you feel misunderstood.

It's hard to be happy when you're missing someone.

It's hard to concentrate when something is constantly on your mind.

nevertheless

It's easy to feel blissful when you have someone amazing in your life.

It's easy to feel beautiful when people tell you so.

It's easy to be at peace with yourself when everything seems so effortless.

It's easy to enjoy an everyday routine when someone else is beside you.

It's easy to see the magnificence in the world when people are kind.

However, it's extremely easy to be together with someone when you know they cherish the time just as much as you and incredibly hard being apart from them.

Day Three

Spier Stables

Day Two

Franshhoek

Franschhoek

Horseback riding in the South African Vinyards

Day One

"You & me have seen everything to see from Bankok to Calgary.
The souls of your shoes are all worn down, the time for sleep is now."
Hotel Room view into Cape Town

Airborne Update

As I'm sitting here on the airplane to Cape Town, South Africa, having nothing better to do and already watched two comedies, I turn on a Romance. 'Letters to Juliette'. Now, i must admit i'm not a big fan of the whole Romeo and Juliet concept, or the reenactments. Truth be told, the story line hardly appeals to me.

Nevertheless, as I sit here watching the movie, I become quite..intrigued. A woman, well at the time (50 years ago), a mere 15 year old, wrote a letter to 'Juliet' seeking help. Like any teenage girl thinks she is or has been, she was in love and she was going to get married with the 'man' whom had swept her away. However, she backs out, she's scared, she's confused and most importantly, she's young. 

As 50 years rolls along, a young woman stumbles upon this letter and decides to reply, not being fully convinced the letter would even arrive at its destination. 

Yet, as if it were fate, the letter reaches the targeted person. The receiver of the letter, whom remembers this love of hers as if it were just yesterday races off to Italy, to find her 'Lorenzo'. For days the search continues because the love has not died, only blossomed into something that fuels the passion and adrenaline pulsing through her veins. She wants, she needs, to find him. 

With no luck, she gives up, and only at that moment, does she stumble upon what she's been searching for, for fifty years. The fire has returned to her life, not only through vivid memories of long summer nights spent on the earth floor, under the stars, but now in reality.

Back to the one whom replied to the 50 year old letter in the first place. She realizes her fiancé is not the man she wants to spend the rest of her life with, but someone whom she can live without, someone she wouldn't miss. She decides to break it off, to move onto something closer to her heart, a man she believes she has fallen madly in love with, can't get out of her mind. Yes yes, i know, it's cliché at it's finest, but I guess that's just why it gets to me, everyone seems to look past it, when our whole life is a movie we've all seen a hundred times.

I guess what i'm trying to get at is..the person you could possibly be spending the rest of your life with is somewhere on this planet. Either a hundreds of thousands of miles away from you, or right next door to you. The world is a strange place, and you should always fallow your heart because its the one thing that will always be honest and true to you, it can't lie or deceive you. 

So, as cheesy as it sounds, fallow your heart, fallow your dreams and don't give up, love has no time limit, although, you wouldn't want to waste away your one life chasing false aspirations that you have tricked yourself into believing.

Climax

Culmination of the past few months. 

Don't ever change, 

you're beautiful inside & out.

Extermination of the Senior Citizens

This was a piece written for an English assignment, using the outrageous theory from 'A Modest Proposal' as inspiration. Hope you see the humor in this, and keep in mind, I'm not being serious...or am i? Enjoy! 

In most parts of the world, population is an issue, either kids are dying at young ages, or the fertility rate is too high. Everyone is so focused on fixing these issues that no one pays attention to the developed countries, where population has been stabilized, where it may not seem like an issue. Yet, no one thinks about the excess amount of people there are on the planet whom are not of any use, or whom are not destined to do any good in their lives, people that will not make a significant difference if they were to... Perhaps, not be here at all?

The world could use less stress from all the supply and demand, supply and demand. A little break, per say. Everyone needs a little vacation once in while, why should our earth have to keep on going 24/7 for billions of years, when a lot of us get breaks every 5-6 days.

You might be asking who these excess, useless people would be? Well, let me enlighten you, starting with old people. Who needs them? They have already served their duties on earth, or at least they should have, so why are they still hanging around? All they do is use up space that could be freed for the incoming human activity, they are causing traffic! If we just eliminated this group of people, things such as healthcare demands would be lowered drastically and Florida wouldn’t be so crowded! Therefore, you wouldn’t have to be put on a waiting list for you annual check-up, or miss that nose-job because some geezer needed a hip replacement. Plus, the beaches wont be packed with bitter seniors walking their dogs, which if I must add, pollute the nice sand we like to make sand castles and burry our friends in.

Might I add, the seniors get discounts at attractions such as amusement parks, movie theaters and museums? This is outrageous, it will only tempt the old beings to attend these various places, only harassing us with their slow pace, and enormous walkers. Not to mention, if you ever happen to bump into you, they carry on conversations about the most random events, and let me tell you this, these conversations have no significance in your life whatsoever, you can’t learn from their mistakes from ‘back in the day’, you need to experience them yourself, but how will you be able to do that if you have to stand around all day listening to the elderly ramble on and on and on….and on?

Therefore, I have come to a conclusion, all elderly people, past the stage of retirement, will have to be exterminated.

Brilliantly Bright Hues

Ahh, seeing as i havent exactly posted anything about what's going on in my little day to day life, i shall ever so gladly let you in on a little of the excitement.
I'm thinking i'll start from approximately where i left off.
First of all, we've had a family from Norway stay for around 2 weeks, they left last weekend, I believe, in a flurry. managed to get from location A (a restaurant) to location B (the airport) within ohh, 2 hours? Keep in mind the airport is 1.5 hours away, or so. After that, the house was quieter and the population 50% smaller

Right before these guests arrived, I also managed to scrap all my money together (plus a little help from the ever so kind father of the house) to purchase a much desired Blackberry Curve. I am ecstatic about this investment. In the long term, it will really save me a lot of money, thanks to the genius application known as the epic Blackberry Messenger.

Durring the school week I have been overloaded with work at some points, and other times a stress-free night or two.

Yesterday was a celebratory day, a friend of mine had a birthday brunch. Well, to be honest, it was late lunch, early dinner, but the alliteration sounded much more pleasant.

And to think! Next weekend is my very own special day. A day in which we celebrate the birth of me, myself and I. Oh what fun! I've been eyeing this gift perched on top of my closet since Astrid left, and the temptation to rip the wrapping off has escalated into something that cant quite be classified as healthy.

In the meanwhile, I will enjoy my last week as a mere 15 year old by surrounding myself with happiness, and care, kindly supplied by my nice array of friends, whom better bake me a tray of cupcakes with frosting in brilliantly bright hues.

*Wink wink, nudge nudge*

Picture by: ~Vorpalimages

Yes, I can be very subtle when I want.

Chocolatey Bribery

It's the simple things in life that put a smile on your face, the simple things like being surprised with a bar of Toblerone out of the blue. I wonderful surprise that doesn't get old and definitely one that is pleasant and not a rude awakening.

You have won me over with a bar of oh-so-sweet-goodness.

Savior of our soul? I think not.

according to mother, im not allowed to voice my opinions anymore.

Dormant Bodies

I have put the pieces together, things are so clear. It's been right infront of our faces this whole time, literally. 

We all have satanic souls placed in our (what used to be) dormant bodies. This has only been done to cover it up. Because us humans are so complex that we tend to look past the obvious, to ignore the things staring straight at us. We were the perfect puppets, all they needed were the batteries.

However, the people who have realized this and ty to fight against it seek a god, or a religion to escape to. This only creates havoc, anger and distress. They will come after you if you try to to free yourself, and they will make life harder, much harder. 

I never had a reason for my atheist views, but now i do. I am not afraid and I am certainly not trying to run away. I have found the reason for why we exist, and i have accepted it, because i know nothing will ever change. It has been set in stone.

The world was created to be destroyed, and the perfect way to accomplish this was by setting us, the human race, on the planet. 

The New Religion

After over an hour of watching the 10 parts to the Illuminati: Music Industry Exposed videos on Youtube, i have come to a conclusion that...Well I'm not even sure, but I do know there is more than just one force watching over us, whom are ultimately controlling our minds, playing with our heads like little puppets, creating a portrait using face paint, a one way path towards doom. Everything is interlinked. Separately it  can do no harm, but brought together could mean the end of the world as we know it, or at least what we like to believe it is. Who is to blame? Ourselves. Why? Because we are naive and unsure, i mean honestly, no one knows why we are here. If you say 'to do good' or 'to make the world a better place', you are sadly mistaken. The only things us humans have done is destroy. We have ruined what the earth once was by being created, we have then used these resources towards our own selfishness, which changed our mindsets to want the bigger & better. It's not just what we strive for, it's our religion. 

Life is all based on wants, wishes and whims.
But what happens afterwards? Are we punished based on the deeds we committed to achieve the only reason we lived our lives?
Or
Are we praised for fulfilling our dreams?
No one will ever know, leaving us a clueless, ignorant society, driven by passion and greed.

A bliss-full hiding place

With a twinkle of an eye, sheer perfection spreads across the face of happiness.

Flawless and unchangeable, at least for the time being.

I've found a place where i can hide, even if it's in the heart of the public soul, seclusion and comfort has overcome.

Dont give up, Never let go

"Don't let go
Never give up, it's such a wonderful life
Don't let go
Never give up, it's such a wonderful life

Driving through the city to the temple station,
Cries into the leather seat
And Susie knows the baby was a family man,
But the world has got him down on his knees

So she throws him at the wall and kisses burn like fire,
And suddenly he starts to believe
He takes her in his arms and he doesn't know why,
But he thinks that he begins to see"
Wonderful life - Hurts

Why do we talk to the dead?

I'll speak to you in riddles. 

Whether you comprehend or not, it's my secret's I want to share, but only indirectly. 

This way i wont get hurt because everyone will interoperate them differently.

Looking Through Stained Glass

A handful of questions thrown at your face isn't exactly the best way i could suggest as 'getting to know someone.' I mean yes, you do find out some rather interesting things, and traits you never knew were present, but do you really feel you know them afterwards?

Do you feel that you have the power to pinpoint what they're thinking, or feeling by a mere facial expression or tone of voice? Do you feel like you know the exact thing to make them laugh? Do you feel you know what to do to make there day that much better? 

If you do, then great, congratulations, you have great analytical skills, but as for me, i don't think this is the case.

Just the thought of you make me filled with joy, yet at the same time mass quantities of utmost confusion, but please do stay with me, because you mean ever so much.

I thought things would be crystal clear, but i have been proven otherwise.

We don't speak like lovers

There are things I wish I could force upon myself to say, to feel and to do, but I have no will power. I don't have the ability to change my mind once it's made, it feel's as if its locked in place, key thrown in the ocean, miles beneath reach. However..I know where it is, and I see it all the time, it's sadly out of my emotional reach.

I'm willing to clean things up, make them 'pretty' again, shake the dust off the shelves and march right on over there..But where do i go first? And what do i do when i get there? I'm  in the biggest fight with my self, and both sides are struggling to find out the true meaning behind their masks of emotions and body of charades. 

I'm so far from alone, yet so close to loneliness and misunderstanding.

Dearest Friend O'Mine

"She's got a smile that it seems to me

Reminds me of childhood memories

Where everything was as fresh as the bright blue sky

Now and then when I see her face

She takes me away to that special place

And if I stayed too long

I'd probably break down and cry."

I  love you Astrid Samuelsberg, why did you leave?

Were all just trying to find our way

Trembling, shaking and alone.

Lost in a nightmare, one you can't hit pause or rewind, a nightmare that has now become reality. 

What was once home, is now a distant memory in wonderland.

I'm here, along with the other 6 billion people in the world, just trying to live my life the best way i know how. Whether I do things that make people happy, or sad, there are reasons behind them, reasons that I stand accountable for, and those reasons are nothing to regret, unless it depends on whether the things dearest to your heart are ripped right out of your hands.. Only then, do you think twice.

Sadly, there is nothing I can do anymore, I have guided him as far as I can, but I guess its just up to him to find his way home now..Hopefully he knows where he belongs, in our hearts, beside us, through thick and thin, good and bad. It's us against the world, without the other, all ends in a debacle.

Oktober. 8, To-tusen-ti.

Avoid the obvious, we should be facing the truth. Kinda shot cause i never had any doubts, look into your eyes, imagine life with out ya, and the love kickstarts again.

Parched

The look of hurt in a person's eyes is one thing that brings me down, hard and fast. 

It's like the protection system I have set up for myself has been burned down with a single match, and the flames are too hot and dehydrated to be quenched of their thirst. 

Yet my body disposes of water, like a never ending flow to a tap...

When will the river run dry?

Hit with a bag of bricks

"I'm falling in love with your favorite song, I'm gonna sing it all night long, im gonna dance with somebody, dance with somebody, dance dance dance with somebody." - Mando Diao


Ever had a that rushing sensation of a mixture of feelings rushing over you, it's so strong you feel dizzy and light headed. Everything around you blacks out for a mili-second while the shock hits you hard, like vibrations bouncing off a wall.
That feeling,
It's really something,
it really is.

Princess and the Pea?

October. 4, 2010

Credits: Astrid Samuelsberg

Green With Envy

Dos de Octubre de dos mil diez

When you pay $4.00 for a cute dress, you know you got a bargain! 
Ah, and people comment on how stingy i am! Well, think 10 years from now, i'll be in my apartment overlooking a beautiful patch of something, while planning my next road trip to some exotic place, drivin to in my very luxurious and extremely fast car, then lets see if all those expensive items of clothes as a teenager were worth it.
Yes, i have it all thought thoroughly through, thick and thin. 
The world better watch out, Brigitte is on her way.


A little hint; Get on my good side, cause i'll be the fun friend that makes you green with envy since you weren't invited to that extravagant party that's now all over the tabloids.


In conclusion, my life will be a globally known feat, obviously thanks to the paparazzi capturing every memorable moment and publicizing for people who took me for granted in the past to see.


Overall, yes, i did have a great day, thanks to none other than A. <- (Check out her blog)

Last day of the month, First day of memories

Smiles stretched across our

 Sun-kissed faces, Watermelon filled stomachs along with wholehearted laughter in our ears; 

Astrid must be here.

I keep dancing on my own

A young boy's dream of flying

September. 27, 2010
Imagine, in under a year this boy, or should I say man now? Will be at university or college partying his ass off, and having a chance to make the small boys dream of 'flying', a reality.


This man will be focusing on his dreams with no one to stop him, no limit can hinder him, not even the sky. This is his young life as an adult. A time in his life where it doesn't necessarily matter if he were to screw up, he is still new enough to this new step that he is able to pick right up and move past it, with more integrity and knowledge.


I suspect he hasn't quite yet though of all this just yet, which he shouldn't feel obliged to in anyway. After all, a birthday does not mark another year of maturity, or another year closer to death, it is just a day in the calendar, a day of celebration and happiness because this young man has now made it through another year of life, successfully.


I would like to thank Dominic Gagné for being one of the few people whom honestly understands me, whom doesn't judge me, and whom accepts me just the way i am. It is hard finding people like him in a world of such selfish, self centered, cruel people. I just happened to be at the right time and place. 
Happy birthday! May another year of happiness bless you.

The Only Thing Humans Succeed At?

September. 26, 2010

People point fingers at one another accusing him of being the devil, when if you take a moment and look around we are all to blame for vandalization and demolition of our own property.

The self destruction of the one and only world we live in, breath in and survive on. We, humans, were set on this world for many reasons, yet to harm and ruin are not on that list. Sadly it seems its the only thing we do, and we do it damned well.

With a shovel in hand, depth isn't a problem.

"It's hard to discover anything past the surface layer, but look hard enough and you'll catch a glimpse of something really worth seeing." 

© Dominic Gagné

Under the Spotlight

My Inspiration you ask?

Simply the details of my surroundings, 

inside and out, 

straight from the heart, 

with absolutely no doubt.

-September. 25, 2010

"Follow the Yellow Brick Road"

September. 25, 2010
Take out the colored pencils, paper, scissors, tape and glue! It's time to bring your inner child out.
Yes, I do admit i talk a lot about the future, and I wish it would hurry along. 
Most people say "I want to live life in the moment, make the most of it", but I, well, I wish to fast forward till im 19, in college, away from parental authority and surrounded by a dream, an opportunity, & only a life only I can decipher. 


The best memories are the ones I create for myself, not the ones I unwillingly let others create for me.

Sweet Sensation

This summer I walked downtown Poulsbo, approximately a 10 minute walk, then spent another 10 minutes in both the Rite Aid and Albertson's to figure out what candy would ease my craving, in the end I came out with a box of Raisinette's from the Dollar Store and finished them on the walk back, only to want some more immediately afterwards.
While visiting family friends I went through their Costco Size bag of trail mix and fished out the M&M's, so I could selfishly enjoy them without having to get through the almonds, peanuts, cashews and raisins on the way. Every time I made my way to the bathroom, or living room I would grab a handful of this colorful delight..Lets just say I made a few extra trips to the restroom that evening.

I recall walking for about 30 minutes to the nearest Wal-Mart to come out with a package of 8 '3 Musketeer's - Mint' chocolate bars in it and devouring half of them on the way home.

And lastly, today, while attempting to break a piece of 'Toblerone' chocolate off the bar, I managed to jab my self with a rounded butter knife so hard I now have a throbbing finger and a mark where the knife bursted a hole in a blood vein.

The thing's I go through for a mere taste of sweet, mouthwatering chocolate that lingers for no more than 20 seconds.

*Stands up* 

"I, Brigitte, have history of abusing sugary substances on a very emotional level to which it psychologically appears to make me feel more 'normal'." 

September. 20, 2010

Itchy-bloodshot eyes, what is this?!

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Speaking of eyes...which reminds me of spectacles, which then reminds me of sunglasses which brings us all very nicely to this picture. Ahh, what cool kids.

To be honest, I actually googled 'eyes' to find a picture to resemble my itchy red eyes, well, actually only one of them is red and itchy, but it's easier said in the plural for some reason.

--

Another Volleyball practice tomorrow! And i have my first game in 8 days, then another one on the 3rd of October! Oh the fun just never ends, does it? Oh, even better, Astrid will have to be dragged along to that one seeing as she'll be in the country. 

A Mouthful of Words

September. 19, 2010

"There is no combination of words I could put on the postcard

And no song that I could sing, but I can try because this is your heart and this is

Our dreams and they are made out of real things

Like a shoebox of photographs with sepia-toned loving

Love is the answer at least for most of the questions in my heart, like

Why are we here? And where do we go? And how come it's so hard?"

-Jack Johnson

A little RR anyone?

September. 18, 2010

[Rockstar488]

Sun in my face, sand in my toes and wind in my hair. 

A good day at the beach!

Self-Determined Liberty

September.17, 2010

Dreamers fantasize about the state of mind where one doesn't feel enclosed.

Like the deepest dynasty of water 

Artists are inspired by the thought of a world with no boundaries.

A flower filled prairie rolling on as far as one can see

An explorer ignited by the fiery flame of untouched earth.

Reaching the paramount of our wondrous world

Freedom

It's what everyone wants, 

and few have.

I wear a key around my neck in hopes it will lead me to the rightly aspired door.

A midpoint between relentless work and reckless play. 

I am looking for the answer to my question, Where am i going?

tick tick tick

The fear of getting older is the fear of not being ready for the future and the responsibilities it brings.

Another Tidbit of Happiness

September. 3, 2010

Im back in Dubai, ready for another school year, all bags unpacked, old school things cleared out, and new pens & uniforms to be used! 

Although i must admit it's kind of scary, summer is over ad we have another 180 school days left till next summer. Time really does fly by, soon enough i'll be heading out of Dubai, and at the moment, I don't know exactly how to feel about that. I guess all i can do is enjoy the time i have left and try to make the most of it. 

Hopefully tonight I'll have my girls night with a few of the gal-pals. I've missed them ever so much, i can't wait to hear all their stories from summer, thank god i have jet-lag, it'll be super easy staying up all night! 

But first! I am in dire need of a good hour or so of getting the heart rate up! After sitting on that damned airplane for 15 hours i was actually in pain, actual pain. I never thought sitting could hurt, but I have sadly been proven wrong!

Another tidbit of happiness to add; The absolutely wonderful Astrid Samuelsberg is Coming in early October! It'll be her last trip here, and we'll have to make it worthwhile! 

Jet-Lag is a Bitch!

Sitting here in San Fransisco International Airport, doing nothing but waiting for my flight to start boarding, which is in..actually i don't really know, but i believe its in about an hour.
The flight is 15:35 Hours long, and i am not excited. Although, at the same time, I just want it to be over and one with, which means it has to start.

School starts in a few days now, and i have to say, I'm pretty thrilled to get back to a routine and to see my friends again..More the friend part than the routine. Jet-lag is going to be a bitch, but at least I only have about 3 or 4 half days at school, then Eid break. A slow ease into the school year, what more can I ask for?

Well, gotta start heading to the gate! Adios!

An Endless Desire..For Me?

August.30,2010

RollerBladeMan
btw i might move in to barsha soon

Me
oh really?

RollerBladeMan
 yeh
so wont be that far from u

Me 
cool
hah

RollerBladeMan
yeh
hehe
wink wink

Me
no
no 'wink wink'

RollerBladeMan
 why not?

Me
you stay at your house and ill stay at mine

RollerBladeMan
haha 
xD
Brigitte, i want u to be my gf

Me
*insert name here*, i know how much you would want that to happen, but its just not going to.

RollerBladeMan
yes or no?

Me 
nopppee

RollerBladeMan
okay

Me
its good you understand

RollerBladeMan
...
anyway
lets just meet up
and see how it goes.

Me 
its not going to go anywhere though

RollerBladeMan
why so sure?

Me 
because i know what i want, and its not you, as a boyfriend.

RollerBladeManwell
we can still see each other
and ill hug u
and kiss u

Me
ehhhhh
no thanks

RollerBladeMan
haha
grea
great*
this is pointless.

Me 
i admire your effort!

RollerBladeMan
haha
nah u dont

Me 
noo, i do
its great how much people will go through to get what they want.

RollerBladeMan
well let me get some credit for it?

Me 
well hey! im talking to you, aren't i?

RollerBladeMan
haha
jeez thanks

Me 
your welcome :)
atleast im being honest with you though

RollerBladeMan
okay